ONCE IN A LIFETIME

a cigarette, a cup of coffee, 5 bucks and conversatioin... what if you finally found the person uv been longing for like all your life is the one you always share your coffee with? what if the right person uv been dreaming of is right beside you but your mind is so clouded by the twist and turns of your life that you werent able to notice it? what if your so afraid that when you finally let go of your feelings that person might not be able to feel the same way...? some people say it comes once in a lifetime, some says its just a virus or a bug that comes in your life that you shud be cautious... its very hard, complicated, undefiable but somehow it exist in each and everyone of us... sometimes it brings priceless happiness but it also hurts like hell... what if something went wrong? wud you be able to know how wud it feel? wud u be able to take the risk of loosing things just to be able to experience one of the most cherished thing a human being cud have, cud feel... wud u be able to work it out? someties it has a funny way of going around in your life... its not that perfect sometimes it starts with the very akward situations... sometimes it starts with friends.. i have watched alot of movies with this kind of thing going on between friends then eventually it will turn out int something... it also happens in real life but not as good as in the films... life has alot of absurdities and you have to consider alot of things just to surpass the test for your courage to venture in this kind of journey in your life that wud come once... what if it didnt start out right.. and ull have this dilema all ur life that u hav let a once in lifetime chance pass you by...

strange things had happen....

sooner or later it will come... if its later wait and have patience if its sooner take the risk and you'll never know what might happen if you didnt....  

i did... it wasnt what i expected it to be... it hurts so bad but its worth it... you just have to accept things the way they are...

TIRED!

i'm so tired! maybe because i'm overwhelmed by my school work. Way back i have this very steady focus and determination. Now it seems as if i'm slowly deteriorating into nothing...

i have to read 300 pages of review material for my prelim exam in one of my subjects...Fortunately i started it but now i dont have the persuation of finishing it but i have to...

My eyes are hurtin because of continuous studyin for several day now... Do i really have to go all through this! waaaah!

I dont even feel that christmas is coming... I usually dont anyways but its worse this year... as in i dont feel any yultide spirit wthin me..  i'm already planning how will i schedule whta i'm going to study for the next topic for the up coming year... talking bout GCness...

but i have to... its really hard bein left behind now a days...!!!!!

MONEY MATTERS???

this season supposed to bring alot of jolliness to everyone... but because of the financial crisis that are economy is experiencing right now.. alot of people have less to spend for christmas this year... if they have something to spend...

every year its a cliche that we aare supposed to remember what christmas is all about.. yes alot of people do... but still the fact remains that alot people were used to celebrating extravgant christmas...  its the most waited event of the year all the money save just for this season...

but now savings are not that sufficient esp. when all the prices are hiking up.. my sister just came back from outside the country and she was shocked that money easily comes out of your hand now due to price increase...

so does money play a big part in this time of the year? i guess its just the status that pinoy did establish among ourselves whenever christmas came by... some country dont even celebrate on christmas eve they just greet each other in the morning then go back to their old everyday selves...

i dont know but for me although we all know what is the reason behind christmas... people just cant help not to celebrate it the way it is usually done...  i'm actually not one of those people who anticipate it because i'm not a jolly person but i guess alot of people are in different aura during this time of the year...

christmas with or without the money i still dont have lovelife so why care about the money.....!harhar...jk! maybe we should just let it pass and remeber what is it really for maybe even though its not that extravagant it is time to reflect to the little blessings we receive each day that makes our life worth while... what would you do with fancy stuff if you dont have someone to share it with?

a thoughtful gift wouldnt hurt.. ayt? 

  haaaay....  its been like years...

since i last posted here..

 i thought my account was deleted but it still lives.. wohoo... 

what to vent... hmmmm.... alot of things happened....

 i'm in my proper year in my course and things are getting a little off-hand lately...

i started to loose my focus and its really bugging me...

i tried alot of things just to pull myself together but it seems as if i'm stucked to this mind buggling horror film of my life.....

shit happens!

hi ang saya2 ko na ngayon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wohoooooooooooo!!!!!!!

lam nyo ba na 3 days in a row na ako nanunuod ng cne

kasi grad ng mga tao sa amin kaya maaga kami dini-dismiss

tapos kanina pinaka masaya kasi kompleto barkada

sayang la si ria kasi may test siya sa zoo

e wawa naman siya lang kasi di pumasa sa amin sa zoo

pinanood ko uli yung wat a girl wants

yung una kasama ko si ava....

tapos kanina malamang kasama ko yung barkada ko

oi may barakada na ang lola nyo.....

malamang kasama ko si mark

kasi malamang kasama siya sa barkada

nilibre niya pa ng ako eh........

hehehehe........

para lang sumama ako kasi nga napanood ko na....

ang feeling pero totoo.......

la lang kasama ko siya katabi ko siya.....

un lang........

hehehehe..........

why do you try to fit in when you were born to stand out.........

wohoooooooo

pwede na uli kami..........

la lang holy thursday ngayon

obvious ba kaya eto la magawa lola nyo

hay naku yung bago kong prospect

d na tumatawag sa haus

sa bagay la naman kasi ako parati sa bahay

hay lam nyo bad kasi na-mimiss ko na si mark

well come to think of it na-mimiss ko na lahat

ng blockmates ko

di ko kasi sila nakita nung enrollment eh!

malamang late kasi kao nag-enroll

.........

xempre nakwento ko na senyo

na nag-aaral daw siya ngayon mag-luto ng pasta

dishes........

huwaaaaaaaat?????????

e mejo paborito lang naman yun ng lola nyo.......

hmmmmmmmmm..........

na-ngarap na naman

yan ang feeling ko kasi kaya ako napapahamak

eh.........

well anyway b-day niya na kasi sa 28

la lang tapos ipag-luluto niya kami tapos

dun kami sa apartment niya kakain....

wish ko lang masarap yung luto niya noh.......

lam nyo ba nag-bet kami.....

e dba nga playah siya........

nag-bet kami na dapat mag-papakatino siya for 8 months

mula may hanggang sa end of the year

pag nagawa nya yun kapalit nun e 1 month akong

mag-papakagirl as in fron the clothes to the gestures

yikes imagine me not wearing black and i'm also

not allowed to swear.........

eh pucha yun lang ang laman ng vocabulary ko eh

(exaaaaaaaaaag!!!!!!!chaka lang yun xempre di lang naman

yun ang laman ng utak ng lola nyo).........

yun gosh.......

terible pala ang epekto ng init.........

nakakabaliw..........

at pucha naman kanina pa ako na-d-dc sa chat

nababadtrip na ko ahhhhh!!!!!!!

sige hanggang sa muli

tata!!!